Dear Nicholas,

So after Sicun changed my password for facebook, my tumblr has been disconnected and I did not know how to connect it back. It was actually quite confusing -_-! But anyways I connected it back again :].

So updates. I did my lesson last thursday, but never really talked about it so I shall. Apparently I think I have higher standards for myself when I teach because I felt my lesson was not that great, but according to everybody who observed me they thought it was great and they thought I was really natural in front of the class. But I felt like awkward because I had to dumb down everything (?) not sure if that’s the right words but it just felt awkward. Another thing she applauded me for was that I had control over the class, but I wasn’t overbearing and that I made good use of my teacher voice. I have to say I guess I have band to thank for that because I was constantly up on the podium in front of a group so I’m not as afraid to talk anymore. And I think I noticed that I think I was a lot more stricter not necessarily but I would always want quiet and I don’t know. Looking back at how I managed band and stuff sometimes I felt like I was being a dictator or something. I mean not always, but just felt like it sometimes. But I don’t know. I think teaching middle school is a lot different that teaching high school band. The kids are somewhat more respectful and listen to you and are still afraid of consequences. But I guess I shall learn more about teaching high school next year.

Now onto math. :] So I think I am super dumb in math. I’m not even sure why I’m a math major sometimes, but I now feel that I’m not entirely dumb in math. Like I don’t get all the proofs, but I manage to get some. I didn’t do super well on my 120 midterm, but looking back I definitely could have gotten more if I just finished that last problem. I surprise myself sometimes in how well I do sometimes, but yet I get really discouraged when I do bad. Which I feel is most of the time, but I think for now I’m going to test out applied math. It seems really interesting and I hope going into applied math will make life not necessarily easier, but learning math more enjoyable. 

Well since it’s Friday and I don’t have class until 2 I think I’m going to play a game of LoL :]

Till Next Time,
Melody